THIS IS THE POEM I JUST WROTE TO ELLIOTT SMITH BEFORE READING ELLIOTT SMITH AND THE BIG NOTHING BY BENJAMIN NUGENT

MR. & MRS. MISERY..
PLEASE REMEMBER TO..
REMIND ME TO..
REMEMBER ME..

I DON'T KNOW WHAT APPEARS TO SEEM..
TAKEN A MORE DESTRUCTIVE TOLL ON ME..
MISSING YOU FOREVER & COMPLETELY
OR FORCED TO DISMISS = THE MISS =
OF MISSING WHAT USED TO BE.

BEG TO DIFFER, MISTER??!!

GIVE ME A REASON
TO PRETEND THE SEASON
CAN ACTUALLY CHANGE
IN THE SAME PLACE
WITH EVERY SINGLE PASSING DAY
EXACTLY! THE SIAMESE SAME..

TO LOSE SOMEONE YOU CARE FOR IS A SICK GAME..
A SIMPLE ANSWER & STILL SO HARD TO MAINTAIN.. THE IMPOSSIBLE CLAIM - FIGHTING TO SUSTAIN.. THE NEW REFRAIN NOW KNOWN AS YOUR BRAIN..
FURTHERMORE, EVEN TRYING TO HANDOUT BLAME~
POINT MADNESS + LOGIC FROM FRAME TO FRAME..
UNLESS OF COURSE YOU ARE QUIETLY THE SAME..
I GUESS WE CAN CALL IT: LEGALLY INSANE..
A FOREVER LIVING QUESTION NO ONE CAN CHANGE
MY FRIENDS BOWED OUT WITH AN EARLY ESCAPE
HUGE MISTAKE = IT'S EASY TO SAY.
BUT HAVE ANY OF US DEALT WITH "NO OTHER WAY?!"
IT'S HARD TO PROCLAIM, I'VE WANTED TO CHANGE
BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY -
IT'S EITHER HIGH ON LIFE OR A DOWN IN A GRAVE.
SO: WERE THEY ALL WEAK?!
THAT'S NOT WHAT I THINK,
MAYBE JUST BORED & TIRED W/ BEING INCOMPLETE

FOREVER AWARE OF A SKIPPED HEARTBEAT~
THEIR MIRRORED MINDS BASKED IN DECEIT.
A COSTLY +/- MEANINGLESS = GOD + PUSH + DELETE..


INSECURITY TO THIS "PERFECT WORLD" IN FLAMES..

LOUDER THAN A GOOD GOD HOOVER DAM SHAME~
NO MORE NAMES TO BE NAMED ~

JUST PAIN + COMPLAINTS OVER UNBALANCED CAMPAIGNS??!
WELL..
WHAT WOULD IT ~ SHOULD IT
OR COULD IT POSSIBLY CHANGE:
I WOULD SUSPECT ABSOLUTELY NOTHING +/- THE SAME~

AS FOR YOU ELLIOTT:

I WILL MAKE THE EXACT MISTAKE TWICE
I'M NO MISS - MY GOOD MAN
BUT I CONTINUE TO MISS YOU..
JUST LIKE YOU WOULD ASK -/+ SAY THAT I DO..